Monday, August 23, 2010

a place in and out inside my head


i'm just past the age of 23..and still don't know how long this mind can still alive while this machine is getting old with lots of broken parts that don't know how to fixed it.
still confused where's the best path to go through
and still can't make my family proud with me..
all my dreams seems so blurred and i even can't recognized it anymore..

i feel so awry. when all the things that i have done became wrong in your eyes.
maybe you still didn't know me much more, and it's my fault that i make this gap with you long time ago.
i rarely make some good chat with you..
i always run away when you try to come close and hug me..
i wasted my time in street better in your side..
but i swear i don't know what must i do..although i must go back to the past. it seems so foolish..

please, forgive me..
in this age..and after it..i'll do my best for you..
i try not to make you sad anymore..
i'll let you proud having such a boy like me..even for now, its still far away from hope..
but i'll try..

goodbye 22 with all the good, sad, pain, joy, laugh, tears, brokenhearted, all all the messed up that i've got..

Friday, August 13, 2010

my FIXIE on my own perception


"Don't be afraid to ask lots of questions. If anyone makes you feel dumb for trying to learn more about your bike, that person is a jerk. Also ride whatever bike you feel best on. If anyone makes you feel bad about the kind of bike you ride, that person is also jerk. You want a bike that you're going to be excited to get onto every day, and it really doesn't matter what kind of bike that is. Its different for different people. For me, I thought it would be a badass road bike, but its actually an old steel behemoth with a ladies frame. If you have a bike that you really don't feel comfortable on, don't blame yourself, blame the bike. Try something else. when you love your bike and you feel comfortable on it, you're going to want to ride."

—Molly Kleinman of Common Cycle, responding to the question “What advice would you give to those new to cycling, especially women?” on LGRAB
*taken from: the-bicyclette.tumblr.com, 6th august 2010

do you know that i just have a new bike? officially it was started around early on july and it fully made on august 1st, 2010. i made a fixed gear bike or maybe people like to say it with fixie, nice name right :) it took so long to build my bike, it almost a month to make it real. on it way to be a full bike, there are a lot of problems that i get, start from the material that very hard to get, the price that can be so ridiculous for me, or maybe from the finishing that so messy. but all that story was make me more proud with my bike. why? because i made it with lots of story behind of it, there's a happier side, bad side, and maybe a disappointed side --" *sigh for a while..

everyone have their taste on what they like or dislike. And it just related too with how good your fixie was. Some people said that it was a good bike and the other said it like a rubbish behind of it. I really appreciate with people that can appreciate what other people have, better than some people that always judge and always complaining. And what i want to said is, whatever people have and done with their bike or maybe something else, it will doesn't matter for us to always give them respect for all what they have. make other people happy is a best way to make us happy too :) Never make other people sad with all the things that we said. For some people that think that they are a professional, please think back again that you also have start from zero to just like me and other people do. We all have being a newbie. Start and learn from zero to be a hero someday. So never under estimate what other people have..
if it just about style that you have in your eyes, then fuck you!!